Today I want to bring you a blog post that is a bit different from what I usually talk about. This isn't so much about reading, or writing, even but about your creative self. That sounds so dramatic and lofty, but its something that I have had to reflect on this week.
There is no real other way to say it, I had a shit week, it got better, but it started out really rough. I won't get into details for the sake of those involved as well as my own sanity, but sometimes jobs suck. Sometimes they suck and you don't realize it. In this case I needed to take a step back and go this isn't right. When you step into a job within a passion you sometimes have a clouded judgment. And I will defiently put myself in that catagory. I ignored many red flags to get a job I hoped would help my futute. But, as it turns out, it wasn't what I wanted it to be. And I had to take a moment to fight for me. And as creatives sometimes that can be hard, we believe in our work, but sometimes, for me at least the prospect of fighting for me, the creator is hard. And this has been a learning process for me. This job has taught me that I am worth it, I am trained in a special set of skills that makes my time, energy, and work ethic, worth more than what I sometimes think it is. But I have to hold myself to that level.
Let me tell you, realizing this and someone putting up a wall when you fight, feels really, really shitty.
On the plus side, I am getting out of this situation shortly. And I have a really good support around me. So I want to share some of the things that help me, when I find myself in these situations where I feel really lost, and hurt, and need to just give myself a little boost.
So I know for some people this can be really hard. Getting distracted when everything is falling apart and it is all you can think about? Yep, been there, done that. But finding that solace in doing something that actively distracts can be really refreshing. For me the main way that I do this is through photography.
These shots are just a few of the shots I have taken at the lake near me. The lake has become a place of peace and happiness for me. In a way I sort of have trained myself to be happy when I get to the lake. This week I just went and put on a playlist on spotify of happy peaceful music, and mixed with the sound of the waves and the sun the hour walk was what I needed.
2. Working Out
Okay ignore the fact that there is snow on the ground in this photo. For me, working out sort off falls under the distraction category but in a different way. Sort of like walking on the beach, running, or working out in some way is what I need a lot of the time. I tend to freeze up when I am stressed. And by physically moving and forcing my body to work through the stress, or sadness, or anger in a way that isn't going to be me just mopping about is best for me. It was something I did a lot in high school without even realizing I was doing it.
So get up, move don't be like me, don't sit and mope about your room.... do it for a bit, be a Disney princess. But then make yourself do something, even if it is just a walk around the block a few times.
Music, audiobooks, podcasts whatever you are into. Maybe put on a youtuber you feel really connected to. Listening to someone else can be really relaxing to lose yourself in other peoples words. Add music to every other thing on this list.
Just go on a drive. Put the windows down, no matter what time of year (Yes even in winter the wind feels great, just bundle up), blast music and drive for a while and feel it all fall away.
I suggest blasting a John Williams sound track. Maybe I am just a nerd but BLASTING Hedwigs Theme, driving fast and feeling the wind is great.
I think that is all I have for today. Sorry if this isn't quite what you were expecting for a post. But making yourself feel good, and believing in yourself, and what to do to get back to that point is quite important to me. Let me know what some of your tips for your self care.
I hope you have a good week and go for the things you love.
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